Its weird how music shape our lives. Or how that certain song can make or break a moment or even make it memorable.
Sitting here listening to Avril Lavigne tracks. And “Keep holding on” plays. Taking me back to 2007. When I lost a dear friend. That day me and a few of his cousins were on our way to look at what was left of his car. And this song played. It's like its imprinted in my brain. I always feel a chill or sad when I hear it. And to this day I will never forget that tragic moment.
On Monday, 16 January 2012, the world lost yet another wonderful person!
Tracy Kieswetter. One of a kind she was. The one person in the world who was pure of heart. Without a doubt! She was our momma goose. Her stunning beauty outside, was merely a fragment of what her heart was like. I swear it was as big as the world! She was proof that you can be beautiful outside and inside. Miss South Africa can kiss her ass!!!
After getting the news, I was in complete and utter disbelief. It was like I was waiting for someone to phone me back saying “psych!”. I tried registering but there was nothing. All I could think of was why her? There are so many horrible inhuman beings out there. Why did Tra have to go? Even though I know that she was in a better place, I still wanted her to be here.
Tracy was the one person you could entrust your whole life with. You could phone her at 12:30am, after having the worst break up ever, and she would get up to come and get you, take you back to her house and be with you. I wanted to tell her mom, if those four kitchen walls could talk, it would probably write a book. All the moments we shared there. The cries, laughs, inspirational words and of course gossip hehe. She was highly motivated and never took no for an answer. Tra always saw the good in everyone and never made any enemies. She was the poster child for the phrase, “make love not war”. She didn’t believe in animosity amongst friends, family or colleagues etc. And always said that if there issues, we need to talk about it and resolve it. And she wouldn’t rest until it is settled. That is how amazing she was. Putting the needs of others before hers. Apart from that, she was the glue that held us all together. Always making sure everyone is ok, that people stay in contact with one another, arranging visits, parties, trips. Anything. You could always leave it in Tracy's hands, and know that you will be safe and everything will be planned down to the tee!
Apart from that, Tra was always a very spiritual person, and her faith as solid as a rock! She helped me deal with things many a times. Especially the loss of my friend Oliver. And I always told her, I hope my faith would reflect that of hers. [Who's going to help me now Tra? :( ] Always positive and confident in God! She was always well prepared. Be it for an exam or just life in general. And she was always the first person I'd talk to, should I get stuck somewhere or if I was troubled. Because I knew, she would know what to do. Tracy was a true friend! A confidant and someone you REALLY could depend on. She would give her last piece of food from her mouth if she had to. That is how truly remarkable she was. Rare!
To Jody and Nicole. My heart bleeds for you guys. I cant imagine how and what you guys must be feeling now. And nothing makes sense at this very moment. But know that HE will answer all our prayers and HE will guide us all during this time of sorrow. Tracy would want us to keep the faith and be strong. Right?
To the Mini boys and Girls. Nothing will make sense at the moment. I was told that denial, anger, sadness and tears, is all part of grieving. So don’t hold back. Let it all out and know that together we can overcome this and keep holding on to all the good times, memories and thoughts. Love you guys always!
No words can ever express what a huge loss everyone is suffering.
The world will never be the same again.
May your soul rest in peace Tra and you will be loved, remembered and memories of you cherished forever and always.
Your Friend
Carmy xoxo
